Comparative: Respect and Loyalty

There aren't many of us left. And by us I mean people who treat finding love with the utmost respect and loyalty. I'm going to explain a few things to whoever is reading. 

God gave us the gift of love, to love, to be able to experience it in so many different ways. He gives us so many chances, so many reasons to love Him and give Him all the glory, and yet we, even myself, put Him on the back burner and TRY to deal with things on our own. If we don't let Him love us, how are we going to know how to properly love someone else? He created it and we're just taking it and blindly going in any direction with it. Everyone is getting hurt by it because they weren't taught how to use it.

I don't know what this generation is about, and quite frankly, I don't care too much to know. I've always been different, I know that. I've always been kind of weird even though I hate to use that word because it is SO overrated. I am a very complex individual. I have a disorder that complicates things to the max, I think very oddly and that puts me in a very unique space. I'm an overly sensitive person who overreacts and probably shouldn't trust every person she comes across but that's just who I am. I can see the good in you even when you can't see it yourself. I can show you who you're meant to be, I have the ability to dress up any kind of person for you and make you believe that you will be that person. I can make you what I want. But I choose not to let you in my head. It takes a special mind to understand mine.

I can go on as many dating sites and bars and talk to as many guys, but it will always be the same scenario. Until I can learn whatever lesson it is that I need to learn I will never be with the right guy. I can't even be mad because I fully understand my situation. At least I know why I've been single for 23 years. Until I personally have that divine intervention with God, I will be in the same spot. I need to experience love from God, the teacher before I can let any man try. Because I don't know what love is and I'm letting any male try.

Well, until next time guys, I'll most likely write a poem later.