Still

They never said it, but always showed it. Too afraid to take the blame for what their hearts have done. They made a mess. Every bit of themselves had fallen and broken into pieces into each others heart, fixing what was broken by their past. They needed each other, but they needed to be apart to realize it.

"You think I'm just gonna say it? You think I'm just gonna let you win, make a fool of myself and say it....fine. You were my first love Carter." I said as my eyes swelled up and he was already headed for the train. He stopped though after I said those last six words. "Are you happy now?" I was exhausted. Keeping in what I felt for this stupid, idiotic, morally corrupt yet wise man.

"You knew I wanted you to say it." Carter said thinking out loud.

"This was never a game to see who could keep the other strung along the longest! I want you in my life for as long as you'll be there, but I guess we both have guts and yours is just dead weight." I turned to leave him at the train stop, but I felt a hand grab my arm and turn me around.

"I love you," It was Carter. He kissed me long and passionately. "and I'm sorry."

"It's too late, Carter. I-I have to go." Tears poured out of my face as I turned and left him there at the stop. That was the only time I was ever really in love so much that it hurt.